Beau Lamarre-Condon urged detectives not to judge him and claimed he was “not a bad person” as police sought his help to find the bodies of his alleged victims, a court has heard.

Lamarre-Condon, 31, is accused of fatally shooting couple Jesse Baird and Luke Davies with his police service weapon in Baird’s Paddington home on 19 February 2024.

He has pleaded not guilty to two counts of murder and one charge of aggravated break and enter.

For days after Lamarre-Condon turned himself in to police, officers were unable to locate Baird and Davies’ bodies, according to Det Sergeant Sasha Pinazza, the officer in charge of the investigation.

In her statement, read to the NSW supreme court on Tuesday afternoon, Pinazza said Lamarre-Condon would not comment without seeking legal advice.

Pinazza then pointed to NSW’s no body, no parole legislation, and Lamarre-Condon indicated he did not know what it was, the jury heard.

She explained that it prevents those convicted of homicide offences from being released on parole unless the state’s parole authority is satisfied the offender helped police find the victim’s body.

He and Pinazza later spoke in an interview room where he told her about mental health triggers and claimed to suffer from post-traumatic stress disorders, her statement said.

Lamarre-Condon mentioned previous work-related matters had “messed me up” and spoke repeatedly about not remembering and having an “outer [sic] body experience”.

“I don’t want you judge me, I’m not a bad person”, Lamarre-Condon told Pinazza, according to her statement.

He eventually asked whether police were close to locating the bodies and said he wanted to assist but wished to contact his solicitor first.

On 27 February 2024, eight days after the alleged murders, Lamarre-Condon told Pinazza the bodies were in the same area as the farm in Bungonia that had been previously searched.

Using a map he then indicated the road exit he had taken, showing no hesitation in identifying the route he had travelled, the statement said.

As they pinpointed the location, another detective who had been listening left the room to pass on the information.

Lamarre-Condon then said he was upset about the NSW police force being excluded from the Mardi Gras parade that year.

He expressed concern at being judged and told the detective he hoped he would “one day be able to talk to Jesse and Luke’s families”, the court heard.

“He was emotional and stated, ‘I’m not that person’,” Pinazza’s statement read.

Though the investigator acknowledged Lamarre-Condon was emotional at times, he also appeared cognisant and Pinazza said she did not observe “any obvious signs of psychosis”.

Baird and Davies’ bodies were found at about 1pm on 27 February 2024 along the fence line of a Greek orthodox monastery in Bungonia.

Earlier, the jury was told of the internet history from Lamarre-Condon’s devices.

On 7 January 2024, a month before the alleged murders and while the accused was on holiday in Bali, the officer’s phone accessed Indonesian e-commerce site Tokopedia and searched for a silencer, the court heard.

The data, extracted by police, showed Lamarre-Condon’s phone accessed a Bunnings video tutorial titled “how to mix concrete”.

The prosecution has alleged the officer unsuccessfully attempted to sink Baird and Davies’ bodies using quick-set concrete.

A man who had matched with Lamarre-Condon on a dating app in early 2024 had his statement read to the jury earlier on Tuesday.

He explained the pair began casually dating but were not in a formal relationship.

The day after the alleged murders, Lamarre-Condon sent him a voice note, which was played to the jury.

“Hey, I’m sorry I’ve been a bit MIA, I’ve literally been very sick and then I’ve got this operation tomorrow so that’s not fun,” Lamarre-Condon said in the recording.

“I’m trying to get back into a positive mindset.”

Lamarre-Condon explained he was supposed to attend a boat party that weekend but was going to cancel because “my body is not looking the best right now”, the jury heard.

The other man had tried to arrange plans with the officer, but Lamarre-Condon, in his voice note, said he had a Taylor Swift concert to attend and other plans depended on the result of his surgery.

“Don’t take it personal, I literally haven’t replied to any of my friends,” Lamarre-Condon said in the recording. “I’m in bed at the moment, just literally not feeling the best.”

Later that night, the man noticed the officer had removed his Instagram and asked why. Lamarre-Condon responded in another voice note about midnight on 21 February 2024.

“I’ve just shut down all my social media, I just need a break mentally,” he said in the recording, played in court.

The day Baird was allegedly murdered, he was due to begin a new role as an associate producer for a shark documentary, according to a statement from Lana Thrupp, the owner of a TV production company.

Thrupp said Baird seemed like a lovely person who was “really keen”, but multiple emails she sent on his first day went unanswered, the jury heard.

On 20 February, 2024, she sent him a text to find out what was happening.

“It was worrying we hadn’t heard from him,” Thrupp said in her statement read to the court on Tuesday.

That night, she received a reply from Baird’s phone.

“Sorry to do this to you but after a lot of thought, I thought it would be best if I were to resign effective immediately,” the text said.

Lamarre-Condon’s defence team has claimed Baird and Davies were accidentally shot in two separate struggles with the accused while he acted in “self-defence”.

The officer cleaned up the scene and disposed of the bodies afterwards because he “panicked considerably”, the defence lawyer John Stratton SC has said.

The trial before Justice Natalie Adams continues.